Sunday.
This day was a day full of unwillingness and regret of my life. Yes, i did not clear my paper over again. I literally very upset to whoever that always supportive to me. I am the same old me again that need to sit over and over for this paper again. My day in the past 5 days were so blackout. I was not empowered to handle my work. Life is full of lesson. but my main concern is.....
As I was pulling out my work in outstation i have to head back to home there after. This frightened me should i go back home earlier or not. My parents will be sitting in the old same cushion waiting worriedly for my arrival. Yeah typically.
But turned out, there is no heated discussion, they are supportive, they are not sad. they never even scold or pouting, what they said is go do it again, don too upset to myself.
At this point i realized i was not used to this soft approach. That is scary maybe they were saving on the end conversation. But turned out that no further lecturing. This is very very awkward...
In the bathroom, with the water falling over my head. This stroke me to let me know this is time to mature. I am turning 23 years old this year. This is time to man up and take responsible to myself. My parents never being harsh on me again. Why, they of course want me to be successful but i am alrdy that old to think waht life i wanted to serve in long term.
Yeah Billy is really time to get over myself. I aint doing better with this,depressing. Watever it is alrdy done. Time to move out of this and this time strike it better.
